Spoken Word
Kapag sinabi kong ‘mahal kita,’ ang ibig kong sabihin ay salamat at nandyan ka.
Kapag sinabi kong 'mahal kita,’ ang ibig kong sabihin, hinahanap-hanap pa rin kita.
Kapag sinabi kong 'mahal kita,’ ang ibig kong sabihin napapagod din ako, nanginginig ang aking mga kalamnan, nanglalambot ang aking mga tuhod, nangangawit ang aking mga braso.
Dahil kapag sinabi kong 'mahal kita,’ ang ibig sabihin, pagpapaguran ko ito, hihintayin kita, susundan, susuyuin.
Dahil ang aking 'mahal kita’ ay hindi nagtatapos sa mahal lang kita. Ang aking 'mahal kita’ ay mayroong pagtanggap na ito ang hirap na kalakip ng pagibig, yakapin mo.
Kapag sinabi kong 'mahal kita,’ ang ibig kong sabihin ay malupit ang mundo at mamahalin ko ang lahat ng kakampi mo kaya hayaan mong dumating ang mga bagyo, hayaan mong malusaw ako sa araw, hayaan mong kumbinisihin kita na kakampi rin ako.
Ikaw na hantungang inaasam, ikaw na kuwentong hindi pagsasawaan, ikaw ang sandali na parating inaalala, ikaw ang kailangan kong pahinga, ikaw ang paghinga.
Kapag sinabi kong 'mahal kita,’ ang ibig kong sabihin masaya ako dahil mahal, gaano man kahaba ang araw, uuwi ako sa iyo…
After all the celebrations have died down,
after all the greetings and all the noise,
I go back to the silence and solitude.
It’s not deafening
nor is it uncomfortable.
It’s just this slice of
(Filipino has a more succint term for it)
Pagbabalik-sarili, pagbabalik-loob
With this comes this heartfelt gratitude for the past year.
It was tumultuous, to say the least.
But Thank You, still.
It has made me realize that being passionate in everything is not sustainable. But rather, be passionate in areas that enrich your life, rather than those that consume it.
This year has been most hubling. That I cannot do everything alone. That I cannot do anything alone. That I only needed to reach out and ask.
Finally, it has made me strive more to be loving to the people close to me. With all our faults, who deserves being loved unconditionally? But it is exactly because we are broken ourselves that we know how much we need to be loved unconditionally and give ourselves freely as well, even with all of the imperfections.
As the day ends, I offer my full gratitude. For that has been, Thank You. And for all that will be, Yes.
Typewriter Series #1191 by Tyler Knott Gregson
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